Mum Guilt - Half Term Plans

School holidays are bitter sweet for me. The girls are home and I love spending time with them; however the pressure on me takes its toll and I always end up with mum guilt.

Both girls would be happy to sit inside all day and play on their tablets and phones. One of them doesn't even stop to eat unless I step in. I grew up on a farm and find it strange that they are not wanting to be outside doing things. That said I find a lot of things strange these days, kids just aren't brought up the same way we were!

I am agoraphobic (and have various other MH disorders). I leave the house maybe once a week at the weekend because my OH is here to go with me. I can just about do it with his support. The rest of the time I stay home. Sometimes I go out to the garden, but for the past 3 months or so I haven't even managed that. School holidays present a problem because I don't want the girls to be in all the time, but they wont actually get off their bums and do anything unless I drag them. The fact I can't usually leave the house means I can't drag them out so they stay in a lot. Hence mum guilt.

So for this half term I have made a few plans. This is NEVER a good thing for me as it stresses me out more than usual but I have to think of the girls.

Today (Saturday) - we are going to a wedding fair. OH and I are getting married next year so thought we would take a look as it should be fairly low stress for me. The girls are not overly happy about the idea but I'm sure they will enjoy it. We might visit the mother in law on the way home depending on how I feel.

Sunday - Our boat has just been taken out the water for winter (due to my agoraphobia being bad we have only used it twice this year!). We need to visit him to bring home all the fishing gear and clothes that were left on him and make a list of work we need to do while he is on dry land.

Monday - Always a bad day for me. OH goes back to work and I slump. Normal service will resume on Tuesday. However the girls have the task of painting stones to leave in public spaces in the newest kiddy phase.

Tuesday - Staying local to home as have doctors appointment and then going to visit our wedding venue.

Wednesday / Thursday / Friday - Depends on weather and my health. I have won tickets to Paignton Zoo which is always a fab day out so I will take the girls there if I can. We also have to go painted stones hunting in various places.  Maybe some fishing.

This is my best case scenario.
Does anyone else get mum guilt because of their health? 

TTFN
K